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Holiday Inductions

17 Dec
So, it’s December. It’s a week until Christmas.  I bet there’s a lot of women approaching 40, 41, 42 weeks, and the pressure is ON!!Christmas-birthday


So here’s the thing, Christmas is not a medical complication.  Women all over are getting pushed to induce, for “big babies” “low fluid” “past due”.  Truly there are times where medical status makes it safer for us to encourage babies to come before they are “ready”.  There is truth there, I don’t think anyone would deny it.


HOWEVER, realistically? I’d be questioning the push around ANY holiday.  I understand that everyone wants to be with their family, but GUESS WHAT? That’s part of the job they chose, trained for, invested in and get paid for.


As a doula, if I don’t want to be attending a birth on Christmas Day, then I don’t take clients 2 weeks on either side of Christmas.  Seriously, I plan this way.  There is a chance that many birth workers around the world will be called away from their family on Christmas Day, it’s reality of the job WE CHOSE!!!


I am not going to drag this post out, and go on and on about how I hate the amount of facebook posts I see about inductions around the holidays, it’s redundant at best. Just hear me when I say CHRISTMAS IS NOT A MEDICAL COMPLICATION OF PREGNANCY!!


Enjoy your holidays.


by Robin Sparkles


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VBAC the hell up

31 Jul

Over a third of women in the US are meeting their babies for the very first time in a sterile OR, while being stitched up from surgery.csection

Many of these women never asked for surgery. Many of them even planned to have a natural, drug free birth. Some of these women did everything right.

Sometimes cesareans have to happen. Often times, they could have been avoided.

Either way, a good amount of these women will then plan a VBAC, or at least want one. This is a problem for many women.

THIS SHOULD NOT BE A FUCKING PROBLEM!! If a woman chooses to have a VBAC, then why should anyone stand in her way? Who gives anyone that right? Hospitals, Dr’s, midwives, even States just simply “Don’t do VBAC”! VBAC’s are BANNED in places, BANNED!!! WHY???

As a doula, I get a lot of VBAC inquiries. So many women at 28, 29, or 30 weeks, who want a VBAC, are with an unsupportive provider, and want me, the doula, to save the day. I can’t save the day. I wish I could. I wish I could give every woman who wants a VBAC the opportunity to get one, but realistically, I can’t.

36917033Realistically, it really sucks for women who are in this position. It really sucks because not everyone is ok with a home birth, and not all birth centers will take VBAC’s, and there are more unsupportive hospitals and doctors than there are supportive ones. It really sucks that most of these women, wouldn’t even be needing to seek out support for a VBAC, if people had been supportive of them the first time around, and if women weren’t made to fear birth in the US.

I hate that people need to fight for VBAC, they shouldn’t have to!

I am a doula. I want you to have the birth you want. I want you to come out of this birth feeling like a fucking rock star.

It really sucks when that doesn’t happen.

It really sucks when you work so hard for a VBAC and you end up with a repeat cesarean. It really sucks for me, and it really sucks for you. My hope is that my clients still feel like rock stars. My clients are fucking rock stars, regardless of how they birth.

But sometimes they feel like shit, and when my clients feel like shit, so do I.this-is-a-job-for..-crap-im-not-wearing-my-costume

And no medical care provider should get to make the decision that leaves me and my client feeling like shit.

This is the not so glamorous part of being a doula. Sometimes you have to feel like shit. Sometimes you have to walk through a really shitty, frustrating and aggravating birth with a client, and feel like shit because you couldn’t save the day.

I can’t save the day.

I can support you though. I can support you even when you feel like shit. I will still think you’re awesome, and I will still tell you that I am proud of you. I will shove my own shit feelings down, so I can talk to you. I will talk to you and tell you all the things you did right.

I will be your rock when you need me, and I will be there to cry with you. I am here if you need to bitch about your shit doctor who wouldn’t even give you a chance.

tumblr_mddhgj6Az01rqlibwo1_500I am here for you, because I am a doula.

Don’t touch that baby!!!

16 Jul
I’ve touched on this subject in passing before.  It’s one that really just pisses me the fuck off.  I can’t even explain it in words.disapproval_baby_meme

When I first start working with a couple who chooses hospital birth, I always talk to them about the standard policies and procedures.  We go over the basics, what’s going to happen when we show up, what to expect at triage, during the first couple hours, if things stall, blah blah blah.   At some point during this conversation, we also need to talk about what happens AFTER baby is born.  I would say about half the time, we need to talk about the “mandatory transition time”

What the Fuck does that even mean??? Seriously! A mom goes through hell to bring her baby into the world, regardless of how it all turns out, and the first thing many hospitals want to do is TAKE THE FUCKING BABY TO THE NURSERY!! WHY?

Do they not understand how absolutely absurd it is to separate an hour old infant from it’s mother?  Who gave them this fucking idea? Do they seriously not understand that the mother needs her baby? The baby needs it’s mother? Is that really a hard concept to grasp?  It shouldn’t be!

Oh my god my blood pressure is skyrocketing just thinking about this.  Seriously people, it’s pisses me off that fucking much.  I get that sometimes there are complications, sometimes babies truly are in need of medical care, ya I’m not a fucking idiot.  But! I also know that most of the time, babies are perfectly healthy and are better off with their mothers.  Me, you know, random doula without a medical degree.  I understand that babies and mothers are better together.

babythiefDo you know that one time a nurse actually told a mother they had to take the baby to the nursery because the lighting was better. Yep, that fucking happened!! Do they even understand why they are doing it? I mean, here’s a mother, just gave birth to her perfect little being, and the nurse comes in and says, ok we’re just going to go ahead and take baby to the nursery now.  Mom says no, and happy go lucky fucking nurse says, well baby needs to go there, it won’t be long.  UM, I’m sorry, are you hard of hearing? The child’s mother just said NO!!  You don’t get to take someones child from them without permission!  Ok, breathe!!

Holy fuck, I’m fired up!

Bonding, breastfeeding, nurturing, all of this needs to happen.  Do you know what does not downloadneed to happen? Bathing a newborn.  Ya, I said it! Your reason for wanting to take the baby, doesn’t make fucking sense.  I also had a nurse once say something about needing to clean off the vagina juice, because vagina’s are dirty.  FUCK YOU!!  This baby was created from a single cell inside this woman’s body, and it came out her vagina, and there is a reason it all happens that way, so back the fuck off!!

Dear L&D Nurse,

You do not have more say in the care of a newborn than it’s parents.  Get off your high fucking horse.

Thanks

Robin Sparkles


by Robin Sparkles

Back the fuck up, I know what I’m doing

12 Jul

I love my job. I love my clients. You know what I don’t love? When the hospital thinks they own you and your fucking baby!

 

Here’s the deal. You are pregnant, you hire some doctor to make sure you are healthy and your baby is healthy and ensure that you get through these precious moments without dying. That’s all your doctor really cares about! If keep-calm-and-don-t-kill-patients-3you and your baby are alive at the end of this whole thing, you doctor walks away feeling like the fucking shit, and never looks back again. Seriously. Do you really think your doctor gives a shit about your emotional well being, or how you are going to feel after they slice you open because your 8lb baby is too big for your small fucking pelvis? NO! They don’t care!!

 

Ok so you have your baby, both you and your baby make it out alive, your doctor makes his 5 minute appearance to feel like the star of the fucking show, congratulates you and goes off to show his skills in the next room. Now what? Well now you have a baby, and all the nurses, and the nursery staff and who ever else needed to be there to watch your doctor be the hero, start telling you what needs to happen next. Man that pisses me off!

 

Do you realize how fucking hard you just worked to birth this human baby product_8187_largeout of your vagina, or how fucking awesome you are for agreeing to let your doctor cut your 8lb baby out of your small ass pelvis (even though, you probably would have done just fine if anyone had any fucking confidence in your body)? You’re the fucking star of the show!! You! Not your doctor! Now in an instant you become a mother, to a real living breathing human. And you know what? You get a say in what happens to the living person you just spent 9 month growing and perfecting and birthing. You!

 

The hospital does not own your baby. They don’t get to dictate what happens. You are the mother, the grower and the nourisher of this little tiny being. Nothing worse than a nurse all high on her horse saying, “ok sweetie, we’re just going to take baby to the nursery for his bath, and eyes and thighs, and get him all wrapped up for you.”  BULLSHIT!! You are the mother, and your baby needs you. Your baby needs to be cuddled and nursed, who care’s if it’s covered in vagina juice, it’s the cutest fucking baby in the entire fucking world, and YOU created it!!!

 

Here’s something else I hear. Well, his sugar levels are a bit low, and he has a bit of jaundice, so we need to give him formula. UM NOOOOOOOOOO!!! Don’t do it! Formula is not the answer. Do you know what is the answer? NURSE, 1012NURSE, NURSE. It’s good for you, your healing, your baby, your supply, your bonding and it’s the best way to regulate your baby. Who decided that feeding your baby a fucking science project was the best way to regulate a body that you created? That sounds like a fucking money maker to me!! I wonder if the hospitals have some sort of agreement with the formula companies…..OH YA THEY DOOO!

 

Seriously, your baby needs you. It’s not fucking rocket science. Your baby has spent the last 9 months with you, 24 hours a day, hearing your voice, your heart beat. You are his mother. You are his protector. You!! The hospital does not own your fucking baby, and 3r0yfuyou should always know that you have the right to say no! Just because the hospital has a “procedure” or a “policy” does not mean you need follow it. Better yet! Pick a hospital that recognizes the importance of mother/baby bonding, rooming in, nursing, etc.

 

This is the only chance you’re going to get to birth this baby.

 

by Robin Sparkles

Being empowered is a choice

10 Jul
As a doula, I have a bit of a pet peeve with clients.  It bugs the shit out of me when they ask my advice, and then do the exact opposite or just do what the doctor says.  WHY THE FUCK DID YOU BOTHER HIRING ME?

 

I am a doula.  My job is to lay out all your options, talk you through it, support you in your choices, and tell you when you are not making choices that are going to get you the birth you claim to want.  Take this example. “I want a completely natural birth, but my doctor said I have to have constant monitors, and stay in bed”.  Ok great, so what are you going to do  to get a natural birth?  When LetMeDoMyJobyou picture your labor do you see yourself laying in a hospital bed, strapped to monitors?  Probably not!   I get this ALL THE FUCKING TIME!!  Here it is! If you want a natural birth, you need to find a provider that is supportive of that.  There can’t be a huge list of rules you are expected to follow.  And don’t tell me that you’ll just labor at home and then go in, and think that’s the answer.  It might be, but you know what a better answer is? FINDING A DOCTOR THAT SUPPORTS YOUR CHOICE!  Holy shit, what a fucking concept!!

 

If you want a completely intervention free birth, hire a midwife.  Did you just come up with like 10 reasons why you needed to be in a hospital? Oh, then hire a hospital midwife, but just being in a hospital is going to decrease your chance of an intervention free birth by a huge amount.   Oh, your baby had to go to the NICU last time, so you think it’s safer to be in a hospital. Ok great, then go to a hospital, find a doctor that will support you, and decide what you want to make compromises on, because there WILL be compromises!!!

Do you see where I am going here?  There are a million options, be an informed consumer.  Seriously, it pisses me off when people hire me, tell me they want a natural birth, and then stay with a doctor who dictates how birth is done.  If you want a natural birth, then make choices that support it.  You can still have a doctor, but probably not the doctor that your neighbor who had a cesarean suggested to you.  If you don’t care about a natural birth, you want an epidural, but you don’t want a cesarean, then listen to me about the steps you can take to reach your goal.

 

I am a doula.  I do not make decisions for you.  I do not tell you not to get an epidural, or that you have to have a home birth….but I am going to tell you when your choices and your goals DON”T FUCKING MATCH!!  There is a reason I am telling you this.  It’s not because I am mean, and just want to piss you off….it’s because I have seen it happen, over and over and over again.

 

I don’t want to hear, well my doctor knows me, and she knows I won’t do it if I don’t want to.  You know what? You will, because

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 you’ll be in labor, and because the nurses will come in and tell you it’s time to get an IV, and that because your water broke you need to stay in bed, because it’s against hospital policy to walk with your water broken.  And you know what? You aren’t going to want to fight it, because you are going to be fucking exhausted, and scared that anything you say or do is going to hurt your baby.  When you are in labor, you do not want to fight, you want to just focus on being in labor.

 

Ok, let’s change the direction of this a little bit.  Why did you hire a doula?  Because you want support? Because this is your first baby and your doctor is difficult? Great, now when your doula tells you things, LISTEN TO HER!!!  Don’t write a birth plan and be all excited about it, only to turn around and change your birth plan because your doctor says you “can’t” labor without IV.  Who says? I did it, thousands of other people do it all the fucking time! Why do you need one? You are an individual person, and should be treated as such.

 

So here’s the deal.  Hire a doula, because doulas are fucking awesome.  Hire the right doula, the one how is going to give you what you need.  Hire a great provider who supports your choices.  Make decisions about what you want, what is most important to you, and find a provider who supports YOU.  A great doula can’t work to her full potential if you are willing to give in to all the pressure from rocketsurgery_fullpic_artworkyour unsupportive doctor.  You hire a doula because you want a great birth, I can’t ever guarantee that for you, because you ultimately make the choices, but I can offer suggestions on how to get it.  If you really want it, you’ll make the choices to get there.  If you choose to stay with an unsupportive provider, then you’ll get the birth you signed up for.
by Robin Sparkles

Work for free? Ain’t nobody got time for that.

21 Jun
I haven’t been a doula for all that long, a couple years, give or take.  There’s been a common theme that I have noticed; Free or Low Cost births.  Moms want them, and Doulas are offering them.

 

I happen to live in a large metropolis, where there is a ton of options for the birthing mother, and there are a ton of doulas.  There is a doula out there for every woman, and that is never so true as it is right now.  There are doulas to meet religious requirements, doulas to meet distance requirements, training requirements, birth history requirements…you name it!!

 

Now we have seen a huge increase in the amount of doulas over the last few years, probably worldwide, nationwide and definitely city-wide.  Doulas are popping up everywhere!  They all have a different history, and reason for wanting to get into doula work.  And each and every one feels like offering free or low cost births is what will be best for them as they get started.

 

Ok, confession time! I did births for free, and I did births for low cost.  I did it! I know! But now I am a couple years in, I have some really great experience behind me, and I am having a hard time finding clients.  Me! The doula that everyone says is awesome. Me! The doula that the new doulas come to for advice.  Why am I having a hard time finding clients? Well it would be my guess that since a huge amount of the doulas in town are doing my job for free, people just aren’t really ready to pay me for it.

 

Because here is the reality.  Money is tight, for a lot of people.  That’s reality.  So why would they pay for services that someone beside me is giving away?  If I had to get my oil changed and I had a choice to take it to a mechanic with 20 years experience and pay like $50 or I could take it next door to a new mechanic who was doing it for free, who would I choose? Who would you choose?

 

Doulas are worth every penny they charge, most of the are probably worth way more than they charge.  We are trying to make ourselves a respected part of the birth team.  We can’t do that if we are doing our job for free.  And we certainly can’t do it, if the doulas who have experience and who do charge can’t get clients.  New doulas are just that; They’re NEW.  They don’t have experience, some haven’t taken training, or ever seen a birth.

 

So here is the main point to this whole thing.  STOP! Stop running yourselves around stressing out, paying for expenses out of your own pocket to give a service to a woman for free.  The women who really benefit from a doula are the ones who pay for it.  The ones who are invested in it.  When I did free and low cost births, I had more moms getting cesareans, more moms getting induced and less respect.  I can only say that’s because once I started really getting in there, finding people to pay for my services, getting more educated on how to be helpful in situations, my clients listened to and valued my words.

 

Doulas need to be valued, if we aren’t then we aren’t making any headway here.  We aren’t going to make changes.  The only way we are going to make an impact on birth is by recognizing our value.  Now I told you already that I did free births. I did low cost births, so I get it.  I get where the thinking is.

 

My thinking  as a doula with experience is that, while you are out there getting your experience for free, are the women who truly needed a doula getting the care they need?  Is that mom going for a VBAC really getting a doula who can help her achieve that?  If that woman who ended up with a cesarean for exhaustion, gotten a vaginal birth if an experienced doula worked with her?

 

I understand that sometimes shit happens.  I get that.  But don’t let your need for experience interfere in a woman’s true need for a doula.  I have put a lot of time and money into training, and learning and asking questions, and walking through each birth, step by step, with doula’s who have more experience than me. I still do that.  I still question whether I missed something or could have done something different.

 

A lot of women are brought to this work after having a really great birth. That’s great! I love when women get really great births, it makes me smile.  What doesn’t make me smile is when that woman who had a really easy, really great birth, ends up with a client getting a cesarean because she thinks that everything that worked for her will work for this woman too.  It doesn’t work like that.  You need to know when a woman needs to rest and when she needs to work, when she needs a rebozo and when she needs some time alone with her partner.  You need to be able to take a step back, accept that sometimes women make choices we don’t agree with.  You need to know how to help a woman after she’s decided to get an epidural, even after you had a really awesome home birth.  This is hard work! It’s unpredictable, and it really sucks sometimes.  You need to be ready for that.

 

So to all the new doulas out there, to all you eager, sweet women with your empowered births.  Know your boundaries. Know when you have taken on more than you can handle.  Know that this work is a family sacrifice.  Know that when you are starting out, a woman with a huge amount of emotional baggage, who is suffering from birth trauma, who needs to have a healing birth, needs a doula with experience.  Let your own needs go.  Put that woman’s need for a good birth be more important than your need for experience.  Maybe suggest she hire an experienced doula, and you can shadow, be a part, without being in charge.  Know your limits, your families limits, and know that you are worth it.

 

by Robin Sparkles